Wednesday, July 31, 2013

the blessing of a boy

I promise to share about our “Gender Dinner” later this week but before I jump straight into the dinner I wanted to give a little background on our baby boy. I have to be honest in saying that when we first found out we were expecting, the thought of having a little boy scared me just a little. I have a few boy cousins, but my family is mainly made up of a bunch of girls. I have nannied a few little boys in the past, but I have just been around little girls a lot more. I started praying right away that the Lord would prepare my heart for whatever He chose to bless us with. My main prayer was just for a healthy baby, boy or girl, but there were several times that I prayed specifically for the Lord to perfectly align my heart with His in regards to our first born child.

From day one, Russ always said it was a boy. Maybe because he really wanted a boy? Or maybe it was his “daddy instinct” ha! He never liked referring to the baby as an “it” so I would catch him all the time saying “he” and I would have to remind him that it might be a baby girl in there! Another person that said it was a boy from the start was my Daddy. He was so confident about it… telling me he didn’t have one single doubt in his mind... "he just knew.” Once again, maybe it has a little something to do with how bad he probably wanted it to be a boy! Both my dad and Russ told me a million times they would be equally ecstatic for a baby girl, but let’s be serious here… my dad is the manliest man I know and bless his heart he never had a little boy of his own. My poor dad spent his days attending cheerleading competitions, dance recitals, and pageants. Although he has never once complained, I know deep down that he has been anxiously awaiting the day where he can attend t-ball games and teach his little grandson how to fish! Aside from Russ and my dad, several of my closest friends told me from the start they had a feeling it was a baby boy. Basically, not one person told me they thought it was a girl. Around 7 or 8 weeks I started having very strong “mommy instincts” that it was in fact a baby boy in there. When I was 9 weeks pregnant the Lord did two really amazing things that confirmed in my heart what was growing in my tummy and I wanted to document it here.

I went to visit my dearest friend/mentor/spiritual mother/hero Ms. Sue to share our big news with her. I was too excited when I called to tell her I was coming to see her that I actually spilled the news on the phone instead of waiting to see her in person the next day… oops! Anyways, when I went to see her she had one of her dearest friends, Mr. Dan, over helping her install some new light bulbs. Mr. Dan was one of my biggest prayer warriors when I lived in Uganda, and he is one of the most spiritually wise men I have ever known. As a wedding gift, Mr. Dan gave Russ and I some oil (called nard) from one of his trips to Jerusalem. It is the exact same nard that Mary anointed Jesus’ body with to prepare him for burial. It was such a special wedding gift and I was so honored by it that I didn’t want to open it or even touch it! I was telling Mr. Dan how much that gift meant to Russ and I and he asked me if we opened it and anointed each other and our house. I told him no, and he told me that we needed to do that! A few minutes later he returned with a small jar of nard that he had given to Sue and asked me if he could go ahead and anoint me with oil right then and there. I had never been anointed with oil before so I was extremely humbled and told him I would be honored to have him anoint me. We sat down on the couch and Mr. Dan began praying the most beautiful prayer over me while anointing my forehead with this precious oil.  He prayed fervently for the baby growing inside of me. He prayed for “his” salvation and “his” relationship with Jesus. He prayed blessings over “him” and spoke favor into “his” life. After he was finished praying I looked up with my eyes filled with tears at Ms. Sue who had tears streaming down her face. She looked at me and said “I hope you know there’s a little boy in there. I think the Lord just confirmed it.” It was such a special moment I will never forget. I can’t even really describe it so trying to type out the story right now doesn’t even seem to be doing it justice. It was an experience so full of the Spirit and I felt so ridiculously humbled. I was literally covered in the aroma of my King and surrounded by two incredible disciples in my life. A day that I never want to forget.

A few days later I received an email from my “spiritual father” in Uganda telling me how happy he was that he was going to be a “jjajja” (grandfather) to a baby BOY! I wrote him back telling him that we weren’t finding out the gender for several more weeks, but I too thought that it was going to be a baby boy. He assured me that he “knew” that the Lord was blessing Russ and I with a son. This was not the first time that my Papa’s words have been prophetic over my life so I knew it had to be God confirming his little life once again.

After both of these experiences with two spiritual rocks in my life, I was so sure that we were having a little boy and I couldn’t have been more excited. I must say that Russ and I truly would have been over the moon at the news of a baby girl. We both look forward to the day that we welcome a sweet little princess into this world. Really, we are just still so grateful that the Lord has chosen to bless us with a child. I am still in awe when I think about this little life growing inside of me and that God has entrusted me to be his mother and Russ to be his father. Our biggest prayer is that God would continue to fill us and equip us to raise Everett in a Godly home filled with the Lord’s presence and that he would come to know the Lord as his personal savior at a young age.

Sweet baby E, your mommy and daddy love you more than you will ever know. I cannot even fathom how much that love is going to grow when we actually see your precious face and hold you for the first time. Although we haven’t met you yet, we already feel so honored to be your parents. We love singing to you, praying blessings over your life, and dreaming about all the memories we are going to make as a little family. Most of all, we cannot wait to watch you grow into the man that God has perfectly created you to be. Little one, we cannot wait to meet you… you have stolen our hearts already and when you enter this world they might just burst!

"Sons are a heritage from the Lord; children a reward from Him. Like arrows in the hands
 of a warrior are sons born in one's youth. Blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them.
Psalm 127:3-5



4 comments:

  1. i was in jerusalem in march! i wish i would have picked some of that stuff up!

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    1. Aw, bummer! I bet you could order some online. Wait, maybe thats sketchy? ha!

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  2. Becca, this is beautiful. What sweet moments and stories that you will be able to share with Everett one day. You are going to be the most wonderful mommy!

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    1. Thank you Casey! You are too sweet. I am so excited to have all of this documented for him!!

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